I found it difficult to known quite what to make of this zine because it is actually very well written and the growing attraction and love between Bodie and Doyle makes for great reading. I have an underlying desire for Bodie and Doyle to be together, that's why I read and write slash, but, and this is a big but, I'm not happy to condone adultery and deceit to achieve this. It's not that I believe in the sanctity of marriage above all else, but I do believe in trust, commitment and responsibility, and with a wife he loves and children he adores, Ray Doyle knew that he was playing with fire by permitting his desire for Bodie to rule him. It doesn't seem to be in character with the Doyle of CI5 to play fast and loose with the affections of two people he claims to love. Doyle can be selfish, but he's also very loyal to those he cares about. I can see him finding himself in love with Bodie, but I sense that guilt would ensure that he'd reject any thought of pursuing that love rather than trying to have his cake and eat it.
I also have to question Bodie's characterisation. Would the Bodie I see on screen submit to playing second string to another woman? I don't think so. Bodie is shown as supremely confident in both his own desirability and in his ability to attract and bed the women he wants. That Bodie isn't the type to share anything, least of all a lover he cares strongly for.
Then we have Doyle's wife, Cheryl. I both liked her and felt extremely sorry for her. To find that your, much loved, husband is not only being unfaithful, but has declared himself unable to live without the other, who turns out to be a man, is not something I'd like to handle and I certainly wouldn't have coped in such a dignified manner as she did either! Perhaps if a threesome had been suggested it might have made a difference. I don't know, but if I'd been Cheryl I'd sure like to have found out. :-)
So would I recommend this story? It's worth reading, but...
Alison, from website May 2010